Little embers are all that are left. My fire has waned with the challenges and frustrations of a particularly cruel school year. With only 2 months left til that delicious season known as summer, I feel a spark glowing deep inside. I'm not dead, just worn out...a lot. :)
My sanity has been hanging by a shoestring lately...more specifically, a roller skate lace! I've found the past 6 weeks a time of excitement and self-exploration as I have ventured into the rink of roller derby. Yes, roller derby. I'm sure you are picturing fierce, sassy chics bashing into each other, all spills and thrills wrapped in fishnets with a side of rink rash. Yeah, kinda.
Today's roller derby is different, less rink wrestling for show and more skill and structure. Or so I've been told. I'm merely "fresh meat" as it were, a newbie to both skates and the fascinating world of Flat Track Roller Derby. I've spent the last month and half dreaming of joining the camaraderie, being a member of a team with a bad-ass name, of rolling into a bout with a confidence that could only belong to my alter ego.
More than dreaming though, I've struggled with weakness, clumsiness, and the tug-of-war between a fear of pushing myself and a fear of what might happen if I do. Yeah, nothing bad-ass about that. I keep working though, but I know I need to step it up even more. I see where athleticism and intelligence cross when I watch my new friends hit the rink, and it is one hell of an impressive sight. They work hard, and it shows. I need to step my game up if I want to join theirs.
This week is about pushing away the bitterness and frustration that dampens my spirit at work while pushing myself on the rink in a way keeps my spirit and excitement of becoming a skilled rollergirl burning! :)
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