Been awhile...

Hey, invisible followers lol. I'm back. Yes, I abandoned my blog. I knew that would eventually happen. School started, and it has been a wild, busy, crazy few weeks. BUT I love my classes! I have a student teacher though, and that is a challenge. She is wonderful, but losing some of the control I so covet is not easy. Fortuntely, she is a great teacher. Otherwise? Gray hair early? Yikes!

Also getting closer to wedding bells. Not really, there will be no bells because there will probably be no wedding. Gavel smacks? Maybe that's what you hear in a good ol-fashioned courthouse wedding. Either way, I have picked a stunning ring worthy of a princess, Joe has picked a gorgeous band, and here we go...soon. As for a date? Still up in the air!

I was also baptized last night!!! You don't know life until you know Christ. That is the ultimate understatement. Even in hard times (and things are very hard in the checkbook), life is easier, burdens lighten, and security holding when Jesus is your Savior.

A Letter to Myself

Dear Amy,

I know you are stressed. Who isn't? This back-to-school stuff is always full of rushing, worrying, preparing, spending, and, of course, food. Snacks, mini chocolate bars, cookies, chips, you name it! And yes, everyone is happily eating them, and they have been placed right in front of you, begging you to partake. All of this is true.

BUT... you have goals, important goals. You are seeking a better body, better health, and size 8 not for the moment, but for life. Maybe the size 8 thing is not so important, but you get the point. Saying no, resisting temptation strengthens your ability to continue to say no. And it feels good, better than eating whatever menacing morsel is calling your name. Is it worth it to eat and later feel guilt and then feel that full, fattish feeling around the middle. Heavens, no! Does it feel good to say no, to see the scale numbers get smaller and smaller, clothes to get looser and looser? Oh, that feels wonderful!!! Grab that feeling and hang on!

Keep that picture in your head, the one of you at your final goal, looking and feeling great. You're so close. So don't give up, especially not over junk. You're better than that. God is with you. Call on Him, and He will help you. He has goals for you too, and you must be healthy and happy to move forward with your missions. What about your kids? They deserve health too. You are their role model, the one they follow. Be a good leader and set that good example, especially for Megan. Joe... he loves you no matter what, and that is fantastic, but he deserves a wife who will be there by his side, healthy and happy. And he will be so proud if you just keep hanging on and working hard. He believes you can do it, and you should believe you can too.

SO go forth today with your eye and mind on the prize, not on the goodies everyone else feels so cool with throwing down the ol hatch. It just isn't for you. You're worth too much. Now have a wonderful day that centers around learning and preparing for your next challenge in the classroom. :)

Sparks Not Flying

I've lost my spark, my energy, my drive. I'm usually a little ball of energy, twisting and turning and making me look like a five year old who just snarfed a jumbo snocone. But not this morning. I've been a preetty foolish eater the past few days, didn't get in my TF yesterday, and this morning it hits me... I have so much to do and only two days to get it in. School is officially back  on Monday, so party time (relaxation time) is over! boohooohoooooooooo

Then there is the goodish but kinda badish stuff. (yes, I made those words up). The good is that we may be going this weekend somewhere to enjoy our last 3 day weekend together, Joe and I. The bad is the I'm broke as a joke (and I think that is pretty ridiculously broke), and it is also just another "excuse" to eat like a maniacal fool.

I really want new clothes for school (I'm such a kid), but I also want those clothes to be smaller. I need to quite playing around and "git-r-done."